What should I do

First excused the text wall

I wei? not what I do..

but I am now beginning to erkl?ren the situation:

generally I am wei? something sch?chtern and inherently no women hero but that I must hide me or a character am pig

It started about a month ago, I though smoker am during the breaks with smoking with and this is me (I simplify here)
(M?dchen 1) noticed to talk with a trick first with a friends of her we fumble in the Gespr?ch and have inherently ?berraschend
well understood.Also when I knew not that they ex from a colleague who the I as friend look at who is with me in training. Is that although I noticed he not r?ber
came but I have not checked.
After a big party I like 90% driver, I have drove people.My colleague sitting one hard and had Laber who need hasn't and I have experienced that
it its ex is he just said he wants me unterst?tzen and so because he had made it was because between them simply not worked.
N?chste party and it was there we both were in a good mood and you could watch it as a fight with some K?rperkontakt "k?mpfen" st?ndig to my M?tze.Anyway, we both had ne quantity
Spa? here...I noticed how he was always eifers?chtiger and thought it well but as always. The round was less decided to go to an observation deck
shortly before the start I had "the opportunity" to k?ssen, n?chtern as I was, I was I thought soo far away the thought that you can't do now remember your colleagues and young do it...
I did not.
There arrived she hampelte rum and right on the main track f?r the paragleiter slipped and opportunity 2... was no again of kacktI on the other hand and as I zur?ck come she's with her ex rum
back home he finished total because he so did that me. I was only the irony because b?se still entt?uscht of him I found k?stlich.
This is in itself enough but there are worse...
I don't get me in the mer well with her she now knows the whole story. We spend from and to have time together my colleague is that no matter where I think he sees this as self punishment
View w?rde I it be based on let but will we do that.Where I learned that if my colleague not w?r we come together w?hren... which then already hurt
the hard fact is we 2 hours time 30 min normal talk and the rest in ambiguities or even "nieveauvoll" ?ber sex and that goes with it she say.
When the two kriselt already st?ndig and I work with k?nnte, times 3 times in the situation I b?se against him have not done it but also my favor
Whether that good for me?I think not... but I want to give up not so
Problem 2 begins the Zwickm?hle
a week sp?ter again ne thick party I driver cough * I Andr? colleges for the first time (we say 2) you know say that they run it, due to its appearance, almost all guys behind like morons k?nnte
I was that drew me not poured proud.However, by their nature real class and I is ?rger me so that I now you these monkeys geh?re
at this party, she has bitten me now you think what probably to H?lle ^ ^ I also irritated XD by another colleague wei? I was that they the ?fter do it when it is full but only with people they really like that... we had changed prior to the evening perhaps if high 2 S?tze!OO the day before the party they me and colleagues from above to their gebby invited and although not many
come d?rfen.I wei? has currently no interest in a relationship but I wei? that that with M?dels do not much to hei?en there is trotzenden sch...

What should I do
Hope that is again split 1?and the idea is already wicked
How should I me to her "correctly behave"
What should I towards 2 do I forget how stand as one of 100 morons there or I am but one

Respect to those who have read the real

(We are all in a ?hnlichen age Oh and I ask times by my dyslexia to excuse spelling errors)